The truth behind me

Hidden behind fake smiles i'm living in most pain
Acting everthing is alright and everything's the same.
Saying "i'm alright"
and knowing i'm not..
Only someone like me could read my thoughts.

Hidden between these lines,my feelings from my thoughts
Darkest secrets,happiness is all a knot.
I know it doesn't matter.
I know i dont.
Just my emotions are worthless
No body understands
No one know's what is like to be me,making everyone smile and knowing you,yourself cannot be happy.

I don't belong here where i am now,can't i just move away?
Away from where i'm not needed.
I could just stay in new york with my friends who actually care
Or california..Just anywhere but here.

Hidden,buried so deep..away..from here..
I wish i didn't care.
I wish i was more confident.
I wish.
The things i can't have because of how i am,because of who i am.

Making everybody happy..but not for me,i don't deserve it.
Be happy
I know i won't.